I am perfect.

I have all my stuff together.

I do not waver in my faith.

I am a strong, independent white woman who dont need no help.  

FALSE.

The Lord has been convicting me about the way I strive for perfection and desire for others to see my perfection especially people who invest in me. I believed for so long that as a disciple of Jesus I had to be perfect and could not share where I was failing or weaknesses in my life. I am so not perfect. I literally do not know my right from my left right now. I doubt God often. I doubt His goodness to me. I doubt that I hear His voice in the Word and in prayer. I doubt that the dreams He has for me will ever become reality. I waver. I'm weak. I'm so dependent on God and other people. I'm not perfect. ... but imperfection is beautiful.

There is so much beauty in my mess of a life.  God is showing me that in the areas where I am weak, He is strong. If I continually act like I am perfect and have all my ducks in a row, then everyone looking into my life sees ME not JESUS... So here I am....

My name is Kristie Allison Reville. I struggle with perfection. I struggle with my emotions controlling me. I struggle with doubt. I struggle with pride. I struggle with vulnerability. I love the Lord with my whole heart. I believe His promises are true. I believe that I am made in the image of God. I believe my identity is Christ's identity. I believe God sees me for who I am , not for what I struggle in. Though I waver, I know in my spirit that God is for me; He will never let me go.

Im not perfect. I never will be. 

Please forgive me where I have put on a show and brought glory to myself instead of Jesus.